Wednesday, November 25, 2009

walked all over v 2.0

OH YES.
it has happened again... A-FUCKING-GAIN
im just livid.. you're the worst friend ever.. EVER.
get it? does that come through your thick fucking skull of yours?
you're the biggest joke i've ever known.
now that I think of it, you never really were a friend..
friends don't not pay friends back.. friends dont USE other friends for rides & shelter & time.
FUCK YOU.

"i don't have time for this"

yeah? i don't have time for your unrealistic views on life. i don't have time for you to use me for everything i have. i don't have time to listen to your stupid fucking stories about pointless, materialistic bullshit.. i don't have time to keep forgiving you for every awful thing you do/say.

you're a bitch, i really do have to tell you.
i know that may come as a surprise to you cause you think your fuckin' shit don't stink so, sorry to burst your perfect fucking bubble.

i am done.
DONE.

no peace& no love for you, bitch- pinkberri :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

i'll be there for you, waiting on your door step.

note to self:
never make any self scarifices for someone who won't return the favour.

or even appreciate it, for that matter.

peace&love - pinkberri

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

in the water, i am beautiful.

If you woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would your reaction be? Jordan. i'd be like "put some clothes on! wtf!"
Do you find smoking unattractive? not really.
Do you drink bottled water? no. tastes the same as water out of the tap.
Think of the last person who hurt you. Do you forgive them? forgive, yes. forget, never.
What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"? kittens!!
When is your birthday? september 11th, yoooo.
Do you smoke weed regularly? i wouldn't say regularly..
Anything annoying you right now? not really..
When was the last time you ate McDonald's? couple weeks?
Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out? no. there are some things that i keep to myself.
Do you want to get married and have kids? married, yes. kids, never.
What's something you really want right now, be honest? the weekend
Are you afraid of falling in love? right now, a little just cause i'm so young.
Have you ever had your heart broken? yes.
Do you like the beach? i'm a beach bum.
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? no, cause then i'd be fired. but i'd sure as hell like to sleep in.
Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii? GREECE
Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? yep.
Would you like the ability to read minds? definitely. could be dangerous, though.
What did you dream about last night? i don't remeber my dream from last night, actually.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night? yes, fuck the storm.
What time did you wake up today? 7:00am
How much cash do you have on you? like 5 cents.. ahahah
What has pissed you off today, if anything at all? work
Do you ever apologize first? yep, even if i know i didn't do anything wrong. i can't hold grudges.
Have you ever seen someone sleepwalk? i think once when i was younger i saw my sister sleepwalking.. funny shit.
Do you think you're trustworthy? i think so.
Do you share food with your friends? usually.. unless it's something i really want to eat..
What's the background on your cell? cherry blossoms
Do you like your phone? yea, i love my blackberry.
Honestly, are things going the way you planned? absolutely not.
Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? kelcy baby's new one
Where is the person you miss the most right now? uvic
What are you most anxious/excited for right now? learning to play guitar!
What is your favorite drink? mojitos!!!!! yummy
What were you doing at 8:00 am? at work.. working.
How did you get your last bruise? i surprisingly don't have any right now.. usually i bruise like a peach!
Is there someone you wish you were still close with? yeah, i guess so.
Where was the last place you fell asleep, other than your bed? couch.
Who was the last person you gave a dirty look to? hmmmm, mom i think.. it was a joke though!
What's the last song you listened to? wanted dead or alive - bon jovi. hahaha
Last person you talked on the phone to? lil' sis
What is the last sport you played? foot ball >:(
Last thing you laughed about? my sister's lack of intelligence.
Where is your dad? in alberta, at home?
Do you have your license? yeahhhh, class 5 soon!
Do you fall for people easily? not fall for but crushes, yes.
Does your life feel like it's going anywhere? not at the moment. :(
Do you bite your lip? by accident sometimes?
Do you believe in love at first sight? yes and no.
Do you open up to a lot of people? no.
What are you listening to right now? are you alright? - lucinda williams
What is your current mood? indifferent
How is your hair styled right now? headband, wavy hair.
How was last night overall? the same as last night..
Who did you last ride in the car with? my next door neighbour, i think.
Will you keep your last name when you get married? probably not unless i'm super famour or something.
Would you rather go camping or to a nice hotel? i like camping but nice hotels are aaaccceee
Do you give out second chances too easily? without a doubt.
Do you think you'll have the same best friend next year? only time will tell..
Have you ever thought about getting your tongue pierced? yea but i've decided i don't like them.
Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? tattoo, yep.
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? depends if it's like, constant
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? nahh
How many people do you trust fully? very few.. it takes a long time for me to fully trust someone.
When you're bored in class, what do you usually do? fall asleep.
Are you happy right now? im sleepyyy.
How would your parents react if you got a tattoo? they wouldn't give a HELL.
Where did the shirt you are wearing come from? Cheer!
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? no :(
How do you feel about your hair right now? it's wet.
What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping.
Are you happy with the way things are going? not completely.. but satisfied.
So, what do you want for your birthday? a trip to Greece.. or atleast to help pay for it.
Who are you more like, your mom or your dad? probably my Dad.
Is your favorite number three, five, or twelve? 12
Could you last in a relationship for over a year? if the right person came along..
Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong? sometimes.. usually. hahah
I bet you kissed someone last night, right? nadddaa
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life. What is it? H2O
What time do you go to bed? 10-10:30pm
Is there someone who continuously lets you down? i want to say no, but yes.
When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? not too long ago
Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? yep, there's a few :)
What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? "i'm gonna text leesh.. nope, too tired."
Is anyone else in the room with you? hope not.
Do you believe what goes around, comes around? hell ya, karma's a biotch.
Are you happier now, or were you happier 4 months ago? hard to say..
Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? yeah but what's done is done.. move on.
In the past week, have you cried? yeahhh, my achilles :(
What color is the shirt you are wearing? navy blue & white.
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? Danny? no! love him!!
Kissed anyone with the name starting with a B, P, T, K, S, J or M? ya
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? i have no self control... hahah

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

baby, our love is true.

1. Name, please. pinkberri
2. Approximate Age? 18
3. Are you happy in your life? moderately, so far.
4. Do you feel like anything is missing? If so, what do you want? yeah, school.
5. Do you plan on being a musician/artist/writer? NO, i don't have much talent in those departments.
6. Do you think you are artistic? if you consider dance an artform, yes.
7. Have you ever tried hard drugs? no, probably never will.
8. If so, have they changed your life? n/a
9. What age would you like to die? i'd like never.. biggest fear = dying
10. Would you let your kids smoke weed? at a certain age.
11. Are you an angry person? not generally.
12. Do you laugh a lot, but don’t really mean it? i laugh a lot when i'm uncomfortable.
13. Do you like to think you are popular? sort of..
14. Describe your most terrifying dream. when i was younger, dreamt about being in a tall room & the walls were closing in on me and i couldn't escape - another when i was younger, dreamt about wolves cornering me on the edge of a cliff with my dog.. but my doggy saved me :)
15. What band would you die to see live? i wouldn't die to see anything but i wouldn't mind seeing John Mayer live.
16. How would you like to die? old age, if i have to die at all.. i'm banking on the possibility of scientists discovering the answer to immortality in my lifetime..
17. What’s your opinion on self-mutilation? cry for attention.
18. Freedom of speech or controlled society? freedom of speech with limitations, hahah... so i guess, controlled society in a way.
19. Obama or Bush? OBAMA - even though he lied about ending the war in Iraq
20. Would you consider yourself intelligent? yea
21. When was the last time you cried? 2 weeks ago?
22. When was the last time you laughed? couple hours ago @ the dinner table.
23. Who is your last text from? Amanda
24. What did it say? Oh ya...
25. Ever had your ass kicked? no. im a lover, not a fighter ;)
26. What’s your middle name? Lillian
27. Single or taken? single, babay!!
28. If taken, do you love this person? n/a
29. If single, what are you looking for in someone? lotssss. i can be picky.
30. Sex or love? why not both?
31. Who is your best friend? Alycia
32. Why is this person your best friend? cause she's my other half.
33. Are you moody? can be.
34. Are you depressed? definitely not.
35. What do you think of abortion? it's that person's choice, no one else's.
36. Are you in a good mood today? no, so cranky.
37. If not, why are you not? cause my mom woke me up early to tell me to move my car out of the driveway.. as if she couldn't have done it on her own..
38. Are you afraid of the swine flu? not really..
39. Are you afraid to be yourself? no.
40. What would you label yourself? i don't really fit any label, in my opinion.
41. Do you live with your parents? parenT. and yes, unfortunately.
42. How many siblings do you have? one
43. Do you wear skinny jeans? i have a couple pairs.. not my favourite.
44. Are you emo? lol, far from it.
45. Are you aware that all emo kids look exactly the same? love this question. yes.
46.Are you a hater? on what? & no, probably not..
47. Are you anti-rasict? absolutely.
48. Explain your personality in 3 words. sweet, caring, understanding.
49. What do you wish your name was? i've started to like my name with age.. i don't want to change it. although, i like the shorter version of it.
50. How old do you want to be when you get married? 26-28
51. What do you want to name your kids? i have a few, but my favourites are London = girl, Payton = boy
52. What kind of hairstyle do you want? i have the hairstyle i want..
53. When was the last time you brushed your teeth? 2 minutes ago.
54. What are you wearing right now? jammies.
55. Say something random. rock the casbah.
56. What do you wear to bed? jammies.
57. What color is your underwear? black.
58. Am I getting too personal? that was personal?
59. Do you think the drug culture is misunderstood? only the marijuana culture.
60. Are you a fan of Hunter S Thompson? who?
61. Do you read literature? if this refers to the last question, apparently not.. but, yea, i do.
62. Do you love horror movies? NO. fuck.
63. What’s your favourite one? n/a.
64. Do you like comedies? yes!
65. Are you a smoker? occasionally.
66. Do you smoke cigars/cigarillos? only in Dominicana
67. Do you have anger problems? nope.
68. Do you know someone who has a mental illness? yes.
69. Have you had someone close to you die of cancer? yes.
70. What do you want to be next Halloween? cave woman
71. What grade are you in? n/a
72. When do you graduate? graduated in '09
73. Do you talk to yourself? it's an obsession.
74. What color are your toenails? pink.
75. Has anyone ever told you you have a nice smile? yesss, but i don't think so.
76. Nice eyes? yep, get that one a lot.
77. Ever broken a bone? toe?
78. Got a black eye? lol, funny story.. kindergarten.
79. Nose bleed? yea
80. Ever been so mad you cried? that's usually what happens when i'm mad.. it's weird.
81. What’s your favourite quote? hmm, i have a lot that i like.
82. Are you listening to anything right now? yuh, rock of ages - def leppard
83. What are you addicted too? buying clothes.
84. Do you like silver hair? not metallic hair, no.. but gray, yes if you're old.
85. Would you ever fight a famous boxer? you'd have to be out of your f'n mind.
86. Could you take on kimbo slice? no! that man's a beast.
87.Can you even fist fight? definitely not.. i'm a baby.
88. Do you work out? yes.
89. Are you in good physical condition? not as good as i used to be :(
90. Do you get creeped out by puppets? yeah, very.. but not the muppets.
91. If you could be any celebrity by one day, who would you be? nicole richie or mary kate olsen.
92. Do you have any phobias? yes, dying and spiders.
93. Ever been mauled by a wild animal? no.
94. Do you think you could be a Suicide Girl? hahah, it's weird that i know what that is.. & NO.
95. What about a playboy bunni? ew, hugh hefner.. such a dirty old man..
96. Are you an insomniac? argh, yes.
97. Do you take birth control? yes.
98. Are these questions pointless? a little.
99. Favourite color? pink, if you hadn't noticed already.

no matter what the people say, i can't let go

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING? no! too young still.
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? 7 months.
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? diamond/sapphire necklace
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? welcome to my life.. hang in there BB
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? yesterday @ work
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? CLOTHES.
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? green apple
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? hair/eyes
9. ONE FAVOURITE SONG? oh jeeze, too many to choose.
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? classified information, sir.
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTEND(ed): " "
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: Telus = shit
13. FAVOURITE MALL STORE: mmmm, urban planet for now.
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: hostess.. don't get me started on that job..
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? probably, somewhere...
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: i did when i was little w/ my lil ' sis
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: Bruce's
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: Alycia or Amrina probs.
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: week ago?
20. FAVOURITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: i'm not really a fan of fast food.. but McD's is the way to go when you're drunk/hungover
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: the world is going to end in 2012.
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIEND?: sushiiii
24. CAN YOU COOK? yes, barely.
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: the 'Rolla. (Toyota Carolla)
26. BEST KISSER: as if you're going to find out on hereeee
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: 2 weeks ago? i don't know..
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: asparagus,peas,brussel sprouts.
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: my hurrrr & my emotional strength. (wow, that sounded really dumb..)
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: how i second guess almost everything i do.
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB? 10 hours - no break. FML.
33. FAVOURITE MOVIE? Troy/Cinderella. or Risky Business
34. CAN YOU SING? i think so.. hahah
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED? Britney Spears. ps. f you, Brit.. you're not forgiven.
36. LAST KISS? Halloween night, i think.
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: Ugly Truth - love that movie!!!
38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT: mascara on/blackberry
39. FAVOURITE VACATION SPOT? does this only count where i've been? = Dominican, not included = Greece
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER? lappy toppy
44. FAVOURITE COMEDIAN? Dane Cook & Russel Peters are tied.
45. DO YOU SMOKE?: occasionally... wait, smoke what? cause that can change things..
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES? with, i can't sleep in the nudeee
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT? my blankeyyy :)
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK? NO.
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE? once & i almost died of a heartattack..
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? french toast, fo sho.
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: not normally unless it's a Peppermint mocha from Starbucks - omg, so good.
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? over easy or scrambled.. depends on what my stomach says..
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY? believe in it? isn't it scientific fact? if not, the public schools might have a lawsuit on their hands..
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? my sister.
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST? my sister.
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED? Oh ya...
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS? 2
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? jammies
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC: cause maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me.
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J? raspberry.. mmm
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL? yeah, im decent.
63. CAN YOU SWIM? yeah, except i totally failed my level 5 in swimming lessons..
64. FAVOURITE ICE CREAM? vanilla or cookie dough.. but either of them make my stomach have a shit fit. (not literally, ew)
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS? like them? wtf?
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: i can't remember what my real hair colour looks like..
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY? I (L) THEME PARTIES!
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? summer
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID? tonight at dinner when i was trying to make jokes about dill..
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING? 7am.. i was so lazy this morning.
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER? snow
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET? hasn't happened yet *knock on wood*
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET? Polkey
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED? wtf question is this.. i don't give a HELL about pirates.
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND? who knowsss
78. BIRTH DATE: 9/11/91.. cool, huh?
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE: nurse
80. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW? not realllyyyy.
81. YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?: Greece.

i be like daaaaaaaaaaaamn,

i hate work.
i can't wait to apply & go to school for good.
like, holy.
i never thought those words would come out of my mouth this year.
but, i really do.

NURSING, HERE I COME.
you won't know what hit ya.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

all this trying has made me tired & i dont even know where to start..

okay, ow!
football was a bad choice.
i should've known something stupid would've resulted.
now i've got to wear a fucking brace for 2 weeks.
complete bs.

on another note, i love when he calls me babe.
i hated that before but, for him.. i'll make an exception.

peace&love - pinkberri